The POSITIVE ASPECTS of being HEARTBROKEN...

Hmm.. another blog again... thanks for reading my blogs though... I REALLY appreciate it when someone has the time to check on my blogs... it makes me think that someone still CARES for me... hehehe... I HOPE...

Besides... it's mostly english... so nakakatamad basahin... it's LONG pa... But I take pride in my WRITINGS.. :p

Not much inspiration again... had not smoked for a WHOLE DAMN DAY... coz I have no cigars, but I will buy some tom... my body still aching from my gym session (yes, i have a gym session EVERYDAY... I'm releasing my anger by PUMPING IRONS... hahaha)... and my right upper leg still has numbness...

Have to shift focus to myself... she REALLY emphasized that I'm NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HER... that's why she'd replaced me with another man as fast as the speed of light... waaah!!!

I guess LOVING is NOT the only reason for a successful relationship.. I guess it's PRACTICALITY AS WELL... (you can't get your love one happy and contented if you're a LOSER LIKE ME...)

My mission now, is to get back to my POWERLIFTER FORM from TEN YEARS AGO.. yes people... I WAS A POWERLIFTER BEFORE... been in a weightlifting class...

Have diet.. (I'm only eating 2-3 cups of rice at lunch, and only 2 sandwiches at dinner... no more breakfast...)

Be busy in my work/business (have to find a job... maybe a lucrative one... I was left because of this... can someone help? hehe)...

And MAYBE another CHANCE... (!?)

Well, while WAITING for SOMETHING that's VERY IMPROBABLE TO HAPPEN (like waiting for a gift from santa?? hehe.. geez.. have to believe in SANTA CLAUS now... coz it's like believing that MY LOVE would RETURN to me.. hahaha)... got to release some thoughts...

I'm done with my anger... done realizing the negative side of things...

Now let's go to the POSITIVE ones...

Hmm... are there REALLY any POSITIVE ASPECTS in BREAKING UP?

Hmm...

"You would only learn to love someone when they are not around." -- from a text by my lovely ex-gf.

Indeed, you could never REALLY appreciate someone when they are always with you. People tend to take things around them for GRANTED, even the ones they love. It's not that they don't LOVE them, it's just that they seem to look past them when trying to find MORE happiness. People do have difficulty in finding contentment.

And now... sadly... I had loved HER even MORE when we're NOT TOGETHER... waah!!!

"I then realized... I really love her... no matter what... not waiting to be loved back... coz I really am in love..." -- from the ym status of the current president of my former org in UPD.

Love would WORK when it's TIME for it to WORK... -- from my lovely ex-gf's blog

Maybe it's REALLY NOT YET TIME for us... (with wishful thinking...)

Maybe she needs to be WITHOUT me for her to realize that she loves me... (damn wishful thinking again...)

Maybe I need to be WITHOUT her for me to realize HOW MUCH IMPORTANT she is to me... (have that already...)

Well.. that's ALL MAYBE...

Coz I'm guilty of having wishful thoughts...

"KUNG KAMI, KAMI".

When heartbroken, talk to female friends more than male friends...

Coz male friends would only say... "Pre, wag mo nang isipin yan... inom na lang tayo and manood ng SHOW"... hehe

But indeed... I have found some male colleagues of mine who gave their 10 cents worth of opinions...

Like Aki... he made me realize that I could help someone by posting my realizations... haha... Thanks Aki! (And thanks for reading my blogs... i'm glad I could be of help...)

And Aki, yes it's NOT LIKE ME... kakagulat no? I have this kind of emotion deep within my heart all the time... and it is awakened by the RIGHT GIRL at the WRONG TIME... waaah!! (wishful thinking AGAIN!!!)

Pati nga MAMA ko nagulat sakin eh... ngayon lang nya akong nakitang MA-INLOVE... tapos ngayon lang niya akong nakita na NADEPRESSED... hahaha!!!

LEGAL kasi yung relationship eh... waaah!!!

And my good old colleague Sam.. and his almost the same philosophy as mine...

"People help because they have problems that needed to be solved in them as well. You could help yourself by helping someone else." -- from Sam

That thought made me remember my IDEA of friendship... (can't divulge, Out of Topic)

Thanks Sam!!!

Female friends get you another side of things... the emotional aspect... the same point of view of your LOVE ONE.

They are the ones that you should talk to after breakup... it gets you to see what an ASSHOLE you really are... hehe...

Kidding aside, they are the ones who would help you realize on things... (I realized mine from a girl... my LOVELY EX-GF... waahh!!)

Yes.. a POSITIVE effect of BREAKING UP is that you'll learn and realize things...

Why do people have to realize things when it's already too late???

As I prepare for a COLD COLD CHRISTMAS... I will leave you guys with a thought...

As my ym status says...

The only POSITIVE THING in BREAKING UP is that YOU WOULDN'T HAVE TO BUY AN EXPENSIVE GIFT FOR XMAS... c,")

But then.. I still plan to buy and mail her the book I promised of giving her this XMAS... It's not that expensive though... Will buy that from the money I've saved for our ENGAGEMENT RING... (waah!!! why do things get bad when you're near the aspect of marriage... it really shows that i'm NOT gonna get married someday... a HARSH reality that I have to accept...)

Loving is INDEED a one-way street...