I'll just wait for the sun to finally set on me...

sometimes we just have to be courageous enough to face the reality and learn to accept it...

for we sometimes hope for some false hopes to happen...

but we have to be brave enough to accept what we are...

and what we would become...

so i guess...

it's better for me to be off alone...

i've given all the love i could give...

and eventually... i just can never get the love i seek...

better not to seek for it then...

coz it would just become a cycle...

it's better to avoid it than seeking a cure...

sometimes, we must accept our fears rather than face them...

i've learned a lot from all my experiences... i guess it's better for me to stop this endless cycle of seeking love... when the love i was seeking is the love that i have for myself...

Ghost of Past Love

A typical love story goes like this:

- Boy and girl fell in love... mostly it's their first love...

- Boy and girl had a wonderful romantic relationship

- Some problems came into their relationship and broke it

- Boy and girl each found another love

- Eventually, they tend to fall into each other arms again

- Their other loves who are "fill-ins" goes by the wayside

- Boy and girl live happily ever after

How I wish this situation is common (and realistic).

Most writers who create these things should be put in a firing squad or be hanged.

They just poison people of believing in some "perfect" romance that is realistically difficult to happen.

But let's put ourselves in that situation.

If you're that Boy or Girl in that love story, would you go back to a past love?

Would you let bygones be bygones? And start loving a past lover who in some way or another, didn't fought for the relationship to work?

As I've said in an old blog of mine, relationships end when it's BOTH of the parties surrender to work out their differences and breaks the relationship apart.

But if you do come back to your past love... how about your "fill-in" lover?

You know what... it's better to be true to yourself...

If you REALLY do love your past lover...

Come back to him/her...

Don't mind your "fill-in" partner...

If that person really loves you... he/she would do what makes you happy...

Ah… the spoils of love...

Besides... it's better for me to love rather than to be loved...